How do YOU fit in?

How easy is it to assimilate someone into your normal group of friends? Immensely difficult. And who would want to reaccept someone whom they have rejected? If its anything, its that my life is becoming more difficult. I feel less and less part of a group of friends and more of a misfit than anything else.

04/10/10. I am now a full Catholic. Praise God!

Forgot to update for a while. So I am now Baptized and Confirmed. I have received the Eucharist. I am officially a Catholic. Honestly it feels really great. I can't remember the last time I had such joy to have faith in something. It's really changed my life.

On the other hand, I'm also sad that other people don't have the same faith. But I'm sure God has a plan for them. Life is still equally indifferent in other ways. I've still got my struggles, but I've added new friends from Church and joined the Youth Group, Youth Choir, and WCCCLC Promotion Team. I really know where God is leading me. I'm not going to say I'm not afraid, but I know that He won't lead me wrong. I feel right.

Thanks be to You, Lord, for hearing my prayers and answering them even when the only thing I believed in was You. Moreover, I'm glad I got to know You now, and for You to have fostered the thirst to know and love You as Your Son has shown all of us. I am humbled to be Your servant. Please use me to reach out to those who need Your love and help.

Sigh, finals. Just about that time again. Time to sign off and get some rest. I am tired..

Prayer in the face of temptation from the Devil.

I'll keep this short. There's no easy way to say this. As a committed unbaptized Catholic, I find myself often second guessing myself-always the voice in the back of my mind saying, "Don't become Catholic, you'll only be chained down in life." "Enjoy life to its fullest!" "You're sinning anyway, it's not going to stop after you are washed of your sins!"

I am clear minded and rooted in my faith enough to know this to be temptation. However, as I have learned, there is no worse than to hide, to feign strength for others. To do this is to be proud. Thus is the reason I am writing this. I know that at this critical time in my life, in the season of Lent, where I have fallen to sin so many times already, I am being tempted to bug out. To quit, so that I might be another soul to collect in Hell. Well...there is no question about how afraid I am. Of everything. And I am tempted. And recently my sins have really severed me with God. And I know that's Satan's passage to me, without a doubt. There's no question I'm weak, and there's no question there's doubt in my mind. But I write this in the hope that to admit myself freely, I won't be alone in facing this tribulation. I know that my true place is with God and while I know that sinning makes Him sad, this little admittance of my faults and fears will remove my doubts and replace it with hope. Hope to continue in my preparation.

So to the Devil, I say, you may tempt me and I may fall sometimes, but in the end, I know that God's glory will destroy you. I refuse to submit to you.

My Lord God, dear Jesus, may I commit myself, my body and soul to you, may everything I do be in your Holy name and glory. I am wholly sorry for my shortcomings, my faults and falls to temptation. May I ask for Your blessings and may I ask to have all doubt removed from my mind as I near the end of this short journey in the start of the journey of my new life.

Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy Kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is on Heaven. Give us this day, our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass upon us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from Evil.
Amen

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, Amen.


Holy Mary, ever virgin, may I ask for your intercessions, pray on my behalf to your Son Jesus, my Lord for His blessings and His protection.

St. Joseph, pray for me, for the sanctity of purity.
St. Benedict, pray for me, for the purity of soul, for the protection from demons within me, and for my actions to be not in evil, but for the glory of God.