Nov. 15

Sorry, but I've been too busy to update.

Lately, I have been between depressive moods, school, and lab reports. Life is very difficult right now. But where it is difficult, I've been growing spiritually. I'm still quite weak and susceptible to my bad habits, but I know that I trust God that He will bring me out of it. Or that He will give me the strength to overcome it.

Still have trouble sleeping. And...I know so many people tell me not to worry about my school, but I still do worry. But I have my ways. Gotta be careful though.

At least my pharmacology midterm went well.

Sometimes things we do don't always go as planned.

Surrounded by darkness I hear
The only dissonant words
I know they will make me tear.

These sounds form chords
Far a two year ago.

Now I weep silently alone
Only to realize...No...
She's gone, lone.

Why must I live so?
The one love I had

Lost, loved I did,
With all my heart.
Broken I live on, rid
Of the one who loved;
Who I was died that night.

Shelled, pained, emptiness, emotionless
Feelings are but of sorrow.
I can only have a guess
What to suppress
It's only less

Than my mind's mental low.

This poem really sucks. My mind is high but I can't do anything about it.